Scraping By

I think it’s been awhile since I actually posted anything about life. I think I stick to photos because they are beautiful and uplifting, something which I haven’t been feeling lately. I am in a rut. I keep hoping for some forward progress, a lifting of the fog, only it just keeps getting thicker. This year has definitely been a tough one – I desperately hope that this is not a sign of things to come in my 30s.

I had an MRI last week, and after waiting to hear from the neurologist’s office and them not getting back to me, I just went to the hospital and got a copy of the report myself. Radiologist’s impression?

1. Broad-based bulging and herniated disc at L5-S1 displacing the left S1 nerve rootlet posteriorly as it enters its lateral recess. Moderate bilateral neural foraminal stenosis.

2. Bulging disc with posterior annular tear at L4-L5.

I am curious as to what that will mean in terms of the future. This shit is getting OLD! And progressively WORSE! Or maybe I am just getting old??

We have been keeping super busy with school and football -Kane and the twins are all in football and Averie cheers for the youth league! Someone in our household has football EVERY day, including Sundays! Justin has been on days off and seems to be excited about the twins being in football – they have been going over plays and rules on a daily basis. ;p


Playing with textures!




  • Bacardi Mama

    I hope they can find some relief for you. Back pain is the worst. I have a few problems with mine, but nothing like yours. I didn't realize you had twins. I do too. My back problems started when I was carrying them.

  • Midwest Mommy

    I have no idea what that stuff means but it sounds painful.

  • Saj

    Now, I'm not a radiologist, nor am I a neurologist, but I am a physical therapist who has seen people with diagnoses like these. It's not the best news, but it's also not the worst.

    Think of your disc as a jelly donut. A herniated disc means the jelly is starting to squirt out of the donut, and that jelly is pressing on your nerve, causing that sciatic pain.

    That annular tear isn't great to hear, but I don't know if it would require surgery.

    Some of the problems you're having could be helped by a PT. In a way, you have to do the correct exercises to push that jelly back into the donut.

    Kind of a long comment, but does it make sense? I hope it helps! Definitely discuss this with the neurologist. I'm not an expert at this stuff! Good luck!!!

  • imadramamama

    That just sucks, but I'm glad that football has been your bright spot!

  • Shawn


    Hang in there. LIfe really suck when you in one of it's many valley's!

    Look on the bright side, you get to see that beautiful coach, ref or is that your hubby in picture #4 at football every day. If he's younger than it appears please forgive me, but he's a looker. I'm just sayin'!

  • Chelle

    I hope you start feeling better…soon! Poor thing :(

    I love the pictures, though–sometimes posting pictures does amazing things to lift my mood!

    Keep us posted on how you're feeling! {{hugs}}

  • Shana

    Great pictures

    Hope you get the back taken care of. Back pain is the worst.

  • Mindi

    It sure would be nice if they called you back and told you exactly what that meant and what needed to be done about it. Good for you to go down and get your reports. I hope they can take care of it and you can get on with all your exercise goals. I love the pictures of the kids. Looks like life is definitely BUSY! Keep your head up Melissa. The fog does have to lift eventually and you'll want to be able to see when it does!

  • keli.h

    I'm so sorry to hear that about your back. I wish you could get a call back and a consult to see what your next step needs to be. *gentle hugs*

    I love the pictures … those football shots are so cute!!

  • Stacie’s Madness

    i hope things get better for you!
    we love football season here too…but I was too chicken to sign bubba up for it. Maybe next year.

  • Krista

    Hope you get some answers and relief soon. I hear there's nothing worse than back pain. Take care of yourself!

  • Two Blessings From Above

    I hope your back feels better, I too am in a major rut!

  • Christie O.

    omg that back must be a killer! i'm sorry. i really hope and pray you'll have relief soon! i still love that you can find the beauty in everything through your pictures, even when it's tough.